I will NEVER forget.

September 11th, 2011...   Ten years since the horrific acts of terrorism were committed against the American people.  And it still feels like it was yesterday.


I am a Kingdoms of Camelot Junkie.  It is a medieval war game on facebook.   I run my own alliance there, called Camelot Fire and Rescue.  With a name like that, it does attract gamers who are also fire fighters, paramedics, EMT's, and other first responders; but it also attracts "civilians."   Although I am Chancellor of the alliance, I have many supporting officers to help me manage it.  And one of them... a good friend, offered to create a website for the alliance that would provide guides and helpful information to our members.   But both "aceofspades" (as he goes by online) and I wanted to make it more than that.   We both felt strongly that we should create a memorial for 9-11.  I haven't the slightest idea of how to create a website so he handled the technical end and I provided input and searched for resources for the site.  


I spent all of Labor Day weekend sifting through hundreds of sites reflecting on the attacks of September 11th, 2001.  "Ace" did the same and it affected us both profoundly.  The following is a post I left in the forum page of our website:

I remember the day like it was yesterday. I was a Field Coordinator for a private for profit child care corporation which meant I helped oversee sixteen separate school age cild care programs.

On September 11th, 2001 I was filling in as a Site Director for one of those programs because we had let the previous Site Director go only a few days prior to that. I got to work about a half hour early as I always do and turned on the television to watch the news while I prepared the classroom for the day. I saw the coverage of the plane having hit the first tower.

As I continued to watch and the events of the morning continued to unfold I became aware very quickly that this was no accident, that our homeland was under attack.

Then I got a call from my boss that another Director had not shown up and there was nobody at that site to receive families. Another teacher had just arrived at my site so I headed out the door to cover the other one. On the way I listened to the radio, in shock. I remember it was hard to drive because I was crying.. afraid for the people inside the first tower, and for my own family.. wondering if we were safe in our own town on the West Coast.

At the second site I had the news on as well. In retrospect I should not have with children on site, but nobody knew what to do. My programs were held in elementary schools and every classroom had a television turned on and the teachers were glued to them. As children arrived on the grounds they were ushered into their classes quickly because we all felt threatened.  We were not under lockdown... but we were close to it.

As I watched the news I saw the plane flying low in the sky and thought, "My dear God, its going to hit the other tower". And of course it did. And then all the false hope that maybe, just maybe this was a series of tragic accidents went down the drain. I burst into loud sobs and could not control my emotion despite the fact that I was now responsible for children in the room.

And the news just kept getting worse. I remember feeling a tremendous amount of sorrow mixed with the fear of uncertainty.

In the days and weeks that followed, I felt a confusing jumble of emotions. I felt pride in my country for coming together in such unity to mourn our losses and find the will to go on. I felt joy at being alive, having a family whom I loved and the fact that I did not lose anyone dear to me in the attacks. And I felt guilty for my joy when others were suffering. I felt fear and uncertainty about the security of our nation. I felt overwhelming sadness for the senseless loss of life. I know many more civilians died in the attacks than firefighters and police officers but the firefighters bothered me the most.

I have always had a passion for firefighters and EMS providers. It's in my blood I guess. Not really since my family history of firefighters is not related by blood, but they were family just the same. My grandfather was really my mother's step father, but I idolized him as a child because he was a fireman. He helped people. He was a highly compassionate being, like most firefighters. And that compassion is what draws me to my passion for firefighters and EMS providers still today.

Today I had the privilege of attending a beautiful ceremony in honor of all the lives lost that horrible day ten years ago.  Our fire department provided a thoughtful, respectful remembrance of those who were lost and honoring those left to carry on with out them.  As part of the Fire Buff Battalion I felt very honored to be there and show my support.   The event was attended by many neighboring fire departments and there was even representation from the NYPD.  And, as I do every year at every memorial ceremony, I cried.  My heart is so broken for all those who are left to carry on with their lives forever changed and holes in their hearts that will never be filled.  I am filled with compassion for those who were there in the aftermath digging for bodies, clearing away rubble, serving the rescuers, and all who were a part of that in any way.   I know it is something they will never forget and that for many it brings nightmares still today and for those people I pray for peace and comfort. 


For all who lost loved ones in the senseless attacks on our country on September 11th, 2001, my heart and my prayers go out to you. That includes the many who have lost loved ones due to health issues brought on by the toxic dust and smoke from the attacks, and those who died from suicide because they simply could not cope.

For all who were there, all who helped, all who gave blood, helped their neighbors, prayed, or helped in any way large or small... to the military, police, firefighters, EMS providers, Red Cross volunteers and all other service providers, you are all heroes, even if you don't consider yourselves to be. I thank you for your service to others.

May we NEVER forget and God help us, may we find it in our hearts to forgive, lest we not be forgiven of our own transgressions.


God bless America, and God bless everyone.


Hotflash out.


Rest in Peace:


Gordon McCannel Aamoth, 32, New York, N.Y.
Maria Rose Abad, 49, Syosset, N.Y.
Edelmiro (Ed) Abad, 54, New York, N.Y.
Andrew Anthony Abate, 37, Melville, N.Y.
Vincent Abate, 40, New York, N.Y.
Laurence Christopher Abel, 37
William F. Abrahamson, 58, Cortland Manor, N.Y.
Richard Anthony Aceto, 42, Wantagh, N.Y.
Erica Van Acker, 62, New York, N.Y.
Heinrich B. Ackermann, 38, New York, N.Y.
Paul Andrew Acquaviva, 29, Glen Rock, N.J.
Christian Adams, 37, Biebelsheim, Germany
Donald L. Adams, 28, Chatham, N.J.
Shannon Lewis Adams, 25, New York, N.Y.
Stephen Adams, 51, New York, N.Y.
Patrick Adams, 60, New York, N.Y.
Ignatius Adanga, 62, New York, N.Y.
Christy A. Addamo, 28, New Hyde Park, N.Y.
Terence E. Adderley, 22, Bloomfield Hills, Mich.
Sophia B. Addo, 36, New York, N.Y.
Lee Adler, 48, Springfield, N.J.
Daniel Thomas Afflitto, 32, Manalapan, N.J.
Emmanuel Afuakwah, 37, New York, N.Y.
Alok Agarwal, 36, Jersey City, N.J.
Mukul Agarwala, 37, New York, N.Y.
Joseph Agnello, 35, New York, N.Y.
David Scott Agnes, 46, New York, N.Y.
Joao A. Aguiar Jr., 30, Red Bank, N.J.
Lt. Brian G. Ahearn, 43, Huntington, N.Y.
Jeremiah J. Ahern, 74, Cliffside Park, N.J.
Joanne Ahladiotis, 27, New York, N.Y.
Shabbir Ahmed, 47, New York, N.Y.
Terrance Andre Aiken, 30, New York, N.Y.
Godwin Ajala, 33, New York, N.Y.
Gertrude M. Alagero, 37, New York, N.Y.
Andrew Alameno, 37, Westfield, N.J.
Margaret Ann (Peggy) Jezycki Alario, 41, New York, N.Y.
Gary Albero, 39, Emerson, N.J.
Jon L. Albert, 46, Upper Nyack, N.Y.
Peter Craig Alderman, 25, New York, N.Y.
Jacquelyn Delaine Aldridge, 46, New York, N.Y.
Grace Alegre-Cua, 40, Glen Rock, N.J.
David D. Alger, 57, New York, N.Y.
Ernest Alikakos, 43, New York, N.Y.
Edward L. Allegretto, 51, Colonia, N.J.
Eric Allen, 44, New York, N.Y.
Joseph Ryan Allen, 39, New York, N.Y.
Richard Lanard Allen, 30, New York, N.Y.
Richard Dennis Allen, 31, New York, N.Y.
Christopher Edward Allingham, 36, River Edge, N.J.
Anna Williams Allison, 48, Stoneham, Massachusetts
Janet M. Alonso, 41, Stony Point, N.Y.
Anthony Alvarado, 31, New York, N.Y.
Antonio Javier Alvarez, 23, New York, N.Y.
Telmo Alvear, 25, New York, N.Y.
Cesar A. Alviar, 60, Bloomfield, N.J.
Tariq Amanullah, 40, Metuchen, N.J.
Angelo Amaranto, 60, New York, N.Y.
James Amato, 43, Ronkonkoma, N.Y.
Joseph Amatuccio, 41, New York, N.Y.
Paul Ambrose, 32, Washington, D.C.
Christopher Charles Amoroso, 29, New York, N.Y.
Spc. Craig Amundson, 28, Fort Belvoir, Va.
Kazuhiro Anai, 42, Scarsdale, N.Y.
Calixto Anaya, 35, Suffern, N.Y.
Jorge Octavio Santos Anaya, 25, Aguascalientes, Aguascalientes, Mexico
Joseph Peter Anchundia, 26, New York, N.Y.
Kermit Charles Anderson, 57, Green Brook, N.J.
Yvette Anderson, 53, New York, N.Y.
John Andreacchio, 52, New York, N.Y.
Michael Rourke Andrews, 34, Belle Harbor, N.Y.
Jean A. Andrucki, 42, Hoboken, N.J.
Siew-Nya Ang, 37, East Brunswick, N.J.
Joseph Angelini, 38, Lindenhurst, N.Y.
Joseph Angelini, 63, Lindenhurst, N.Y.
David Angell, 54, Pasadena, California
Lynn Angell, 45, Pasadena, California
Laura Angilletta, 23, New York, N.Y.
Doreen J. Angrisani, 44, New York, N.Y.
Lorraine D. Antigua, 32, Middletown, N.J.
Seima Aoyama, 48, Culver City, Calif.
Peter Paul Apollo, 26, Hoboken, N.J.
Faustino Apostol, 55, New York, N.Y.
Frank Thomas Aquilino, 26, New York, N.Y.
Patrick Michael Aranyos, 26, New York, N.Y.
David Gregory Arce, 36, New York, N.Y.
Michael G. Arczynski, 45, Little Silver, N.J.
Louis Arena, 32, New York, N.Y.
Barbara Arestegui, 38, Marstons Mills, Massachusetts
Adam Arias, 37, Staten Island, N.Y.
Michael J. Armstrong, 34, New York, N.Y.
Jack Charles Aron, 52, Bergenfield, N.J.
Joshua Aron, 29, New York, N.Y.
Richard Avery Aronow, 48, Mahwah, N.J.
Myra Aronson, 52, Charlestown, Massachusetts
Japhet J. Aryee, 49, Spring Valley, N.Y.
Carl Asaro, 39, Middletown, N.Y.
Michael A. Asciak, 47, Ridgefield, N.J.
Michael Edward Asher, 53, Monroe, N.Y.
Janice Ashley, 25, Rockville Centre, N.Y.
Thomas J. Ashton, 21, New York, N.Y.
Manuel O. Asitimbay, 36, New York, N.Y.
Lt. Gregg Arthur Atlas, 45, Howells, N.Y.
Gerald Atwood, 38, New York, N.Y.
James Audiffred, 38, New York, N.Y.
Kenneth W. Van Auken, 47, East Brunswick, N.J.
Louis F. Aversano, Jr, 58, Manalapan, N.J.
Ezra Aviles, 41, Commack, N.Y.
Alona Avraham, 30, Asdod, Israel.
Ayodeji Awe, 42, New York, N.Y
Samuel (Sandy) Ayala, 36, New York, N.Y.
Arlene T. Babakitis, 47, Secaucus, N.J.
Eustace (Rudy) Bacchus, 48, Metuchen, N.J.
John James Badagliacca, 35, New York, N.Y.
Jane Ellen Baeszler, 43, New York, N.Y.
Robert J. Baierwalter, 44, Albertson, N.Y.
Garnet Edward (Ace) Bailey, 54, Lynnfield, Mass.
Andrew J. Bailey, 29, New York, N.Y.
Brett T. Bailey, 28, Bricktown, N.J.
Tatyana Bakalinskaya, 43, New York, N.Y.
Michael S. Baksh, 36, Englewood, N.J.
Sharon Balkcom, 43, White Plains, N.Y.
Michael Andrew Bane, 33, Yardley, Pa.
Kathy Bantis, 44, Chicago, Ill.
Gerard Jean Baptiste, 35, New York, N.Y.
Walter Baran, 42, New York, N.Y.
Gerard A. Barbara, 53, New York, N.Y.
Paul V. Barbaro, 35, Holmdel, N.J.
James W. Barbella, 53, Oceanside, N.Y.
Ivan Kyrillos Fairbanks Barbosa, 30, Jersey City, N.J.
Victor Daniel Barbosa, 23, New York, N.Y.
Christine Barbuto, 32, Brookline, Massachusetts
Colleen Ann Barkow, 26, East Windsor, N.J.
David Michael Barkway, 34, Toronto, Ontario, Canada
Melissa Rose Barnes, 27, Redlands, Calif.
Matthew Barnes, 37, Monroe, N.Y.
Sheila Patricia Barnes, 55, Bay Shore, N.Y.
Evan J. Baron, 38, Bridgewater, N.J.
Renee Barrett-Arjune, 41, Irvington, N.J.
Arthur T. Barry, 35, New York, N.Y.
Diane G. Barry, 60, New York, N.Y.
Maurice Vincent Barry, 49, Rutherford, N.J.
Scott D. Bart, 28, Malverne, N.Y.
Carlton W. Bartels, 44, New York, N.Y.
Guy Barzvi, 29, New York, N.Y.
Inna Basina, 43, New York, N.Y.
Alysia Basmajian, 23, Bayonne, N.J.
Kenneth William Basnicki, 48, Etobicoke, Ontario, Canada
Lt. Steven J. Bates, 42, New York, N.Y.
Paul James Battaglia, 22, New York, N.Y.
W. David Bauer, 45, Rumson, N.J.
Ivhan Luis Carpio Bautista, 24, New York, N.Y.
Marlyn C. Bautista, 46, Iselin, N.J.
Mark Bavis, 31, West Newton, Mass.
Jasper Baxter, 45, Philadelphia, Pa.
Lorraine G. Bay, 58, East Windsor, N.J.
Michele (Du Berry) Beale, 37, Essex, Britain
Todd Beamer, 32, Cranbury, N.J.
Paul F. Beatini, 40, Park Ridge, N.J.
Jane S. Beatty, 53, Belford, N.J.
Alan Beaven, 48, Oakland, CA
Larry I. Beck, 38, Baldwin, N.Y.
Manette Marie Beckles, 43, Rahway, N.J.
Carl John Bedigian, 35, New York, N.Y.
Michael Beekman, 39, New York, N.Y.
Maria Behr, 41, Milford, N.J.
(Retired) Master Sgt. Max Beilke, 69, Laurel, Md.
Yelena Belilovsky, 38, Mamaroneck, N.Y.
Nina Patrice Bell, 39, New York, N.Y.
Andrea Della Bella, 59, Jersey City, N.J.
Debbie S. Bellows, 30, East Windsor, N.J.
Stephen Elliot Belson, 51, New York, N.Y.
Paul Michael Benedetti, 32, New York, N.Y.
Denise Lenore Benedetto, 40, New York, N.Y.
Bryan Craig Bennett, 25, New York, N.Y.
Oliver Duncan Bennett, 29, London, England
Eric L. Bennett, 29, New York, N.Y.
Margaret L. Benson, 52, Rockaway, N.J.
Dominick J. Berardi, 25, New York, N.Y.
James Patrick Berger, 44, Lower Makefield, Pa.
Steven Howard Berger, 45, Manalapan, N.J.
John P. Bergin, 39, New York, N.Y.
Alvin Bergsohn, 48, Baldwin Harbor, N.Y.
Daniel D. Bergstein, 38, Teaneck, N.J.
Graham Andrew Berkeley, 37, Boston, Mass.
Michael J. Berkeley, 38, New York, N.Y.
Donna Bernaerts-Kearns, 44, Hoboken, N.J.
David W. Bernard, 57, Chelmsford, Mass.
William Bernstein, 44, New York, N.Y.
David M. Berray, 39, New York, N.Y.
David S. Berry, 43, New York, N.Y.
Joseph J. Berry, 55, Saddle River, N.J.
William Reed Bethke, 36, Hamilton, N.J.
Yeneneh Betru, 35, Burbank, Calif
Timothy D. Betterly, 42, Little Silver, N.J.
Carolyn Beug, 48, Los Angeles, California
Edward F. Beyea, 42, New York, N.Y.
Paul Michael Beyer, 37, New York, N.Y.
Anil T. Bharvaney, 41, East Windsor, N.J.
Bella Bhukhan, 24, Union, N.J.
Shimmy D. Biegeleisen, 42, New York, N.Y.
Peter Alexander Bielfeld, 44, New York, N.Y.
William Biggart, 54, New York, N.Y.
Brian Bilcher, 36, New York, N.Y.
Mark K. Bingham, 31, San Francisco, Calif.
Carl Vincent Bini, 44, New York, N.Y.
Gary Bird, 51, Tempe, Ariz.
Joshua David Birnbaum, 24, New York, N.Y.
George Bishop, 52, Granite Springs, N.Y.
Kris Romeo Bishundat, 23, Waldorf, Md.
Jeffrey D. Bittner, 27, New York, N.Y.
Balewa Albert Blackman, 26, New York, N.Y.
Christopher Joseph Blackwell, 42, Patterson, N.Y.
Carrie Blagburn, 48, Temple Hills, Md.
Susan L. Blair, 35, East Brunswick, N.J.
Harry Blanding, 38, Blakeslee, Pa.
Janice L. Blaney, 55, Williston Park, N.Y.
Craig Michael Blass, 27, Greenlawn, N.Y.
Rita Blau, 52, New York, N.Y.
Richard M. Blood, 38, Ridgewood, N.J.
Michael A. Boccardi, 30, Bronxville, N.Y.
John Paul Bocchi, 38, New Vernon, N.J.
Michael L. Bocchino, 45, New York, N.Y.
Susan Mary Bochino, 36, New York, N.Y.
Deora Frances Bodley, 20, San Diego, Calif.
Bruce Douglas (Chappy) Boehm, 49, West Hempstead, N.Y.
Mary Katherine Boffa, 45, New York, N.Y.
Nicholas A. Bogdan, 34, Browns Mills, N.J.
Darren C. Bohan, 34, New York, N.Y.
Lawrence Francis Boisseau, 36, Freehold, N.J.
Vincent M. Boland, 25, Ringwood, N.J.
Touri Bolourchi, 69, Beverly Hills, Calif.
Alan Bondarenko, 53, Flemington, N.J.
Andre Bonheur, 40, New York, N.Y.
Colin Arthur Bonnett, 39, New York, N.Y.
Frank Bonomo, 42, Port Jefferson, N.Y.
Yvonne L. Bonomo, 30, New York, N.Y.
Sean Booker, 35, Irvington, N.J.
Kelly Ann Booms, 24, Brookline, Mass.
Lt. Col. Canfield D. Boone, 54, Clifton, Va.
Mary Jane (MJ) Booth, 64, Falls Church, Va.
Sherry Ann Bordeaux, 38, Jersey City, N.J.
Krystine C. Bordenabe, 33, Old Bridge, N.J.
Martin Boryczewski, 29, Parsippany, N.J.
Richard E. Bosco, 34, Suffern, N.Y.
Klaus Bothe, 31, Linkenheim, Baden-Wurttemberg, Germany
Carol Bouchard, 43, Warwick, Rhode Island
John Howard Boulton, 29, New York, N.Y.
Francisco Bourdier, 41, New York, N.Y.
Thomas H. Bowden, 36, Wyckoff, N.J.
Donna Bowen, 42, Waldorf, Md.
Kimberly S. Bowers, 31, Islip, N.Y.
Veronique (Bonnie) Nicole Bowers, 28, New York, N.Y.
Larry Bowman, 46, New York, N.Y.
Shawn Edward Bowman, 28, New York, N.Y.
Kevin L. Bowser, 45, Philadelphia, Pa.
Gary R. Box, 37, North Bellmore, N.Y.
Gennady Boyarsky, 34, New York, N.Y.
Pamela Boyce, 43, New York, N.Y.
Allen Boyle, 30, Fredericksburg, Va.
Michael Boyle, 37, Westbury, N.Y.
Alfred Braca, 54, Leonardo, N.J.
Sandra Conaty Brace, 60, New York, N.Y.
Kevin H. Bracken, 37, New York, N.Y.
Sandra W. Bradshaw, 38, Greensboro, N.C.
David Brian Brady, 41, Summit, N.J.
Alexander Braginsky, 38, Stamford, Conn.
Nicholas W. Brandemarti, 21, Mantua, N.J.
Daniel R. Brandhorst, 41, Los Angeles, Calif
David Reed Gamboa Brandhorst, 3, Los Angeles, Calif.
Michelle Renee Bratton, 23, Yonkers, N.Y.
Patrice Braut, 31, New York, N.Y.
Lydia Estelle Bravo, 50, Dunellen, N.J.
Ronald Michael Breitweiser, 39, Middletown Township, N.J.
Edward A. Brennan, 37, New York, N.Y.
Frank H. Brennan, 50, New York, N.Y.
Michael Emmett Brennan, 27, New York, N.Y.
Peter Brennan, 30, Ronkonkoma, N.Y.
Thomas M. Brennan, 32, Scarsdale, N.Y.
Capt. Daniel Brethel, 43, Farmingdale, N.Y.
Gary L. Bright, 36, Union City, N.J.
Jonathan Eric Briley, 43, Mount Vernon, N.Y.
Mark A. Brisman, 34, Armonk, N.Y.
Paul Gary Bristow, 27, New York, N.Y.
Victoria Alvarez Brito, 38, New York, N.Y.
Marion Britton, 53, New York, N.Y.
Mark Francis Broderick, 42, Old Bridge, N.J.
Herman C. Broghammer, 58, North Merrick, N.Y.
Keith Broomfield, 49, New York, N.Y.
Bernard Curtis Brown, 11, Washington, D.C.
Janice J. Brown, 35, New York, N.Y.
Lloyd Brown, 28, Bronxville, N.Y.
Capt. Patrick J. Brown, 48, New York, N.Y.
Bettina Browne, 49, Atlantic Beach, N.Y.
Mark Bruce, 40, Summit, N.J.
Richard Bruehert, 38, Westbury, N.Y.
Andrew Brunn, 28
Capt. Vincent Brunton, 43, New York, N.Y.
Ronald Paul Bucca, 47, Tuckahoe, N.Y.
Brandon J. Buchanan, 24, New York, N.Y.
Greg Joseph Buck, 37, New York, N.Y.
Dennis Buckley, 38, Chatham, N.J.
Nancy Bueche, 43, Hicksville, N.Y.
Patrick Joseph Buhse, 36, Lincroft, N.J.
John E. Bulaga, 35, Paterson, N.J.
Stephen Bunin, 45, New York, N.Y.
Christopher Lee Burford, 23, Hubert, N.C.
Thomas Daniel Burke, 38, Bedford Hills, N.Y.
Capt. William F. Burke, 46, New York, N.Y.
Matthew J. Burke, 28, New York, N.Y.
Charles Burlingame, 51, Herndon, Va.
Thomas E. Burnett Jr., 38, San Ramon, Calif.
Donald James Burns, 61, Nissequogue, N.Y.
Kathleen A. Burns, 49, New York, N.Y.
Keith James Burns, 39, East Rutherford, N.J.
John Patrick Burnside, 36, New York, N.Y.
Irina Buslo, 32, New York, N.Y.
Milton Bustillo, 37, New York, N.Y.
Thomas M. Butler, 37, Kings Park, N.Y.
Patrick Byrne, 39, New York, N.Y.
Timothy G. Byrne, 36, Manhattan, N.Y.
Daniel Martin Caballero, 21, Houston, Texas
Jesus Cabezas, 66, New York, N.Y.
Lillian Caceres, 48, New York, N.Y.
Brian Joseph Cachia, 26, New York, N.Y.
Steven Cafiero, 31, New York, N.Y.
Richard M. Caggiano, 25, New York, N.Y.
Cecile M. Caguicla, 55, Boonton, N.J.
John Brett Cahill, 56, Wellesley, Mass.
Michael John Cahill, 37, East Williston, N.Y.
Scott W. Cahill, 30, West Caldwell, N.J.
Thomas J. Cahill, 36, Franklin Lakes, N.J.
George Cain, 35, Massapequa, N.Y.
Salvatore B. Calabro, 38, New York, N.Y.
Joseph Calandrillo, 49, Hawley, Pa.
Philip V. Calcagno, 57, New York, N.Y.
Sgt. 1st Class Jose Orlando Calderon-Olmedo, 44, Annandale, Va.
Edward Calderon, 44, Jersey City, N.J.
Kenneth Marcus Caldwell, 30, New York, N.Y.
Dominick E. Calia, 40, Manalapan, N.J.
Felix (Bobby) Calixte, 38, New York, N.Y.
Capt. Frank Callahan, 51, New York, N.Y.
Liam Callahan, 44, Rockaway, N.J.
Suzanne Calley, 42, San Martin, Calif.
Luigi Calvi, 34, East Rutherford, N.J.
Roko Camaj, 60, Manhasset, N.Y.
Michael Cammarata, 22, Huguenot, N.Y.
David Otey Campbell, 51, Basking Ridge, N.J.
Geoffrey Thomas Campbell, 31, New York, N.Y.
Sandra Patricia Campbell, 45, New York, N.Y.
Jill Marie Campbell, 31, New York, N.Y.
Robert Arthur Campbell, 25, New York, N.Y.
Juan Ortega Campos, 32, New York, N.Y.
Sean Canavan, 39, New York, N.Y.
John A. Candela, 42, Glen Ridge, N.J.
Vincent Cangelosi, 30, New York, N.Y.
Stephen J. Cangialosi, 40, Middletown, N.J.
Lisa B. Cannava, 30, New York, N.Y.
Brian Cannizzaro, 30, New York, N.Y.
Michael R. Canty, 30, Schenectady, N.Y.
Louis A. Caporicci, 35, New York, N.Y.
Jonathan N. Cappello, 23, Garden City, N.Y.
James Christopher Cappers, 33, Wading River, N.Y.
Richard M. Caproni, 34, Lynbrook, N.Y.
Jose Cardona, 32, New York, N.Y.
Dennis M Carey, 51, Wantagh, N.Y.
Edward Carlino, 46, New York, N.Y.
Michael Scott Carlo, 34, New York, N.Y.
David G. Carlone, 46, Randolph, N.J.
Rosemarie C. Carlson, 40, New York, N.Y.
Mark Stephen Carney, 41, Rahway, N.J.
Joyce Ann Carpeneto, 40, New York, N.Y.
Alicia Acevedo Carranza, Teziutlan, Puebla, Mexico
Jeremy M. Carrington, 34, New York, N.Y.
Michael T. Carroll, 39, New York, N.Y.
Peter Carroll, 42, New York, N.Y.
James J. Carson, 32, Massapequa, N.Y.
Christoffer Carstanjen, 33, Turner Falls, Mass.
Angelene C. Carter, 51, Forrestville, Md.
James Marcel Cartier, 26, New York, N.Y.
Sharon Carver, 38, Waldorf, Md.
Vivian Casalduc, 45, New York, N.Y.
John F. Casazza, 38, Colts Neck, N.J.
Paul Cascio, 23, Manhasset, N.Y.
Neilie Anne Heffernan Casey, 32, Wellesley, Massachusetts
Kathleen Hunt Casey, 43, Middletown, N.J.
William Cashman, 57, North Bergen, N.J.
Margarito Casillas, 54, Guadalajara, Jalisco, Mexico
Thomas Anthony Casoria, 29, New York, N.Y.
William Otto Caspar, 57, Eatontown, N.J.
Alejandro Castano, 35, Englewood, N.J.
Arcelia Castillo, 49, Elizabeth, N.J.
Leonard M. Castrianno, 30, New York, N.Y.
Jose Ramon Castro, 37, New York, N.Y.
William Caswell, 54, Silver Spring, Md.
Richard G. Catarelli, 47, New York, N.Y.
Christopher Sean Caton, 34, New York, N.Y.
Robert J. Caufield, 48, Valley Stream, N.Y.
Mary Teresa Caulfield, 58, New York, N.Y.
Judson Cavalier, 26, Huntington, N.Y.
Michael Joseph Cawley, 32, Bellmore, N.Y.
Jason D. Cayne, 32, Morganville, N.J.
Juan Armando Ceballos, 47, New York, N.Y.
Marcia G. Cecil-Carter, 34, New York, N.Y.
Jason Cefalu, 30, West Hempstead, N.Y.
Thomas J. Celic, 43, New York, N.Y.
Ana M. Centeno, 38, Bayonne, N.J.
Joni Cesta, 37, Bellmore, N.Y.
John J. Chada, 55, Manassas, Va.
Jeffrey M. Chairnoff, 35, West Windsor, N.J.
Swarna Chalasani, 33, Jersey City, N.J.
William Chalcoff, 41, Roslyn, N.Y.
Eli Chalouh, 23, New York, N.Y.
Charles Lawrence (Chip) Chan, 23, New York, N.Y.
Mandy Chang, 40, New York, N.Y.
Rosa Maria (Rosemary) Chapa, 64, Springfield, Va.
Mark L. Charette, 38, Millburn, N.J.
David M. Charlebois, 39, Washington, D.C
Gregorio Manuel Chavez, 48, New York, N.Y.
Jayceryll M. de Chavez, 24, Carteret, N.J.
Pedro Francisco Checo, 35, New York, N.Y.
Douglas MacMillan Cherry, 38, Maplewood, N.J.
Stephen Patrick Cherry, 41, Stamford, Conn.
Vernon Paul Cherry, 49, New York, N.Y.
Nestor Chevalier, 30, New York, N.Y.
Swede Joseph Chevalier, 26, Locust, N.J.
Alexander H. Chiang, 51, New City, N.Y.
Dorothy J. Chiarchiaro, 61, Glenwood, N.J.
Luis Alfonso Chimbo, 39, New York, N.Y.
Robert Chin, 33, New York, N.Y.
Wing Wai (Eddie) Ching, 29, Union, N.J.
Nicholas P. Chiofalo, 39, Selden, N.Y.
John Chipura, 39, New York, N.Y.
Peter A. Chirchirillo, 47, Langhorne, Pa.
Catherine E. Chirls, 47, Princeton, N.J.
Kyung (Kaccy) Cho, 30, Clifton, N.J.
Abul K. Chowdhury, 30, New York, N.Y.
Mohammed Salahuddin Chowdhury, 38, New York, N.Y.
Kirsten L. Christophe, 39, Maplewood, N.J.
Pamela Chu, 31, New York, N.Y.
Steven Paul Chucknick, 44, Cliffwood Beach, N.J.
Wai-ching Chung, 36, New York, N.Y.
Christopher Ciafardini, 30, New York, N.Y.
Alex F. Ciccone, 38, New Rochelle, N.Y.
Frances Ann Cilente, 26, New York, N.Y.
Elaine Cillo, 40, New York, N.Y.
Edna Cintron, 46, New York, N.Y.
Nestor Andre Cintron, 26, New York, N.Y.
Lt. Robert Dominick Cirri, 39, Nutley, N.J.
Juan Pablo Alvarez Cisneros, 23, Weehawken, N.J.
Sarah Clark, 65, Columbia, Md.
Gregory Alan Clark, 40, Teaneck, N.J.
Mannie Leroy Clark, 54, New York, N.Y.
Thomas R. Clark, 37, Summit, N.J.
Eugene Clark, 47, New York, N.Y.
Benjamin Keefe Clark, 39, New York, N.Y.
Christopher Robert Clarke, 34, Philadelphia, Pa.
Donna Clarke, 39, New York, N.Y.
Michael Clarke, 27, Prince's Bay, N.Y.
Suria R.E. Clarke, 30, New York, N.Y.
Kevin Francis Cleary, 38, New York, N.Y.
James D. Cleere, 55, Newton, Iowa
Geoffrey W. Cloud, 36, Stamford, Conn.
Susan M. Clyne, 42, Lindenhurst, N.Y.
Steven Coakley, 36, Deer Park, N.Y.
Jeffrey Coale, 31, Souderton, Pa.
Patricia A. Cody, 46, Brigantine, N.J.
Daniel Michael Coffey, 54, Newburgh, N.Y.
Jason Matthew Coffey, 25, Newburgh, N.Y.
Florence Cohen, 62, New York, N.Y.
Kevin Sanford Cohen, 28, Edison, N.J.
Anthony Joseph Coladonato, 47, New York, N.Y.
Mark J. Colaio, 34, New York, N.Y.
Stephen J. Colaio, 32, Montauk, N.Y.
Christopher M. Colasanti, 33, Hoboken, N.J.
Michel Paris Colbert, 39, West New York, N.J.
Kevin Nathaniel Colbert, 25, New York, N.Y.
Keith Eugene Coleman, 34, Warren, N.J.
Scott Thomas Coleman, 31, New York, N.Y.
Tarel Coleman, 32
Liam Joseph Colhoun, 34, Flushing,, N.Y.
Robert D. Colin, 49, West Babylon, N.Y.
Robert J. Coll, 35, Glen Ridge, N.J.
Jean Marie Collin, 42, New York, N.Y.
John Michael Collins, 42, New York, N.Y.
Michael L. Collins, 38, Montclair, N.J.
Thomas J. Collins, 36, New York, N.Y.
Joseph Collison, 50, New York, N.Y.
Jeffrey Collman, 41, Novato, Calif.
Patricia Malia Colodner, 39, New York, N.Y.
Linda M. Colon, 46, Perrineville, N.J.
Soledi Colon, 39, New York, N.Y.
Ronald Comer, 56, Northport, N.Y.
Jaime Concepcion, 46, New York, N.Y.
Albert Conde, 62, Englishtown, N.J.
Denease Conley, 44, New York, N.Y.
Susan Clancy Conlon, 41, New York, N.Y.
Margaret Mary Conner, 57, New York, N.Y.
John E. Connolly, 46, Allenwood, N.J.
Cynthia L. Connolly, 40, Metuchen, N.J.
James Lee Connor, 38, Summit, N.J.
Jonathan (J.C.) Connors, 55, Old Brookville, N.Y.
Kevin P. Connors, 55, Greenwich, Conn.
Kevin Francis Conroy, 47, New York, N.Y.
Brenda E. Conway, 40, New York, N.Y.
Dennis Michael Cook, 33, Colts Neck, N.J.
Helen D. Cook, 24, New York, N.Y.
Jeffrey Coombs, 42, Abington, Massachusetts
Julian Cooper, 39, Springdale, Md.
John A. Cooper, 40, Bayonne, N.J.
Zandra Cooper, Annandale, Va.
Joseph J. Coppo, 47, New Canaan, Conn.
Gerard J. Coppola, 46, New Providence, N.J.
Joseph Albert Corbett, 28, Islip, N.Y.
John (Jay) J. Corcoran, 43, Norwell, Mass
Alejandro Cordero, 23, New York, N.Y.
Robert Cordice, 28, New York, N.Y.
Ruben D. Correa, 44, New York, N.Y.
Danny A. Correa-Gutierrez, 25, Fairview, N.J.
Georgine Rose Corrigan, 56, Honolulu, Hawaii
James Corrigan, 60, New York, N.Y.
Carlos Cortes, 57, New York, N.Y.
Kevin M. Cosgrove, 46, West Islip, N.Y.
Dolores Marie Costa, 53, Middletown, N.J.
Digna Alexandra Rivera Costanza, 25, New York, N.Y.
Charles Gregory Costello, 46, Old Bridge, N.J.
Michael S. Costello, 27, Hoboken, N.J.
Asia Cottom, 11, Washington, D.C.
Conrod K.H. Cottoy, 51, New York, N.Y.
Martin Coughlan, 54, New York, N.Y.
Sgt. John Gerard Coughlin, 43, Pomona, N.Y.
Timothy John Coughlin, 42, New York, N.Y.
James E. Cove, 48, Rockville Centre, N.Y.
Andre Cox, 29, New York, N.Y.
Frederick John Cox, 27, New York, N.Y.
James Raymond Coyle, 26, New York, N.Y.
Michelle Coyle-Eulau, 38, Garden City, N.Y.
Anne M. Cramer, 47, New York, N.Y.
Christopher Seton Cramer, 34, Manahawkin, N.J.
Lt. Cmdr. Eric Allen Cranford, 32, Drexel, N.C.
Denise Crant, 46, Hackensack, N.J.
Robert James Crawford, 62, New York, N.Y.
James L. Crawford, 33, Madison, N.J.
Tara Creamer, 30, Worcester, Massachusetts
Joanne Mary Cregan, 32, New York, N.Y.
Lucia Crifasi, 51, Glendale, N.Y.
Lt. John Crisci, 48, Holbrook, N.Y.
Daniel Hal Crisman, 25, New York, N.Y.
Dennis A. Cross, 60, Islip Terrace, N.Y.
Helen Crossin-Kittle, 34, Larchmont, N.Y.
Kevin Raymond Crotty, 43, Summit, N.J.
Thomas G. Crotty, 42, Rockville Centre, N.Y.
John Crowe, 57, Rutherford, N.J.
Welles Remy Crowther, 24, Upper Nyack, N.Y.
Robert L. Cruikshank, 64, New York, N.Y.
Francisco Cruz, 47, New York, N.Y.
John Robert Cruz, 32, Jersey City, N.J.
Kenneth John Cubas, 48, Woodstock, N.Y.
Thelma Cuccinello, 71, Wilmot, New Hampshire
Richard Joseph Cudina, 46, Glen Gardner, N.J.
Neil James Cudmore, 38, Port Washington, N.Y.
Thomas Patrick Cullen, 31, New York, N.Y.
Joan McConnell Cullinan, 47, Scarsdale, N.Y.
Joyce Cummings, 65
Brian Thomas Cummins, 38, Manasquan, N.J.
Nilton Albuquerque Fernao Cunha, 41
Michael Joseph Cunningham, 39, Princeton Junction, N.J.
Robert Curatolo, 31, New York, N.Y.
Laurence Curia, 41, Garden City, N.Y.
Paul Dario Curioli, 53, Norwalk, Conn.
Patrick Currivan, 52, Winchester, Mass.
Beverly Curry, 41, New York, N.Y.
Sgt. Michael Curtin, 45, Medford, N.Y.
Patricia Cushing, 69, Bayonne, N.J.
Gavin Cushny, 47, Hoboken, N.J.
Caleb Arron Dack, 39, Montclair, N.J.
Carlos S. DaCosta, 41, Elizabeth, N.J.
Jason Dahl, 43, Denver, Colo.
Brian Dale, 43, Warren, New Jersey
John D'Allara, 47, Pearl River, N.Y.
Vincent D'Amadeo, 36, East Patchoque, N.Y.
Thomas A. Damaskinos, 33, Matawan, N.J.
Jack L. D'Ambrosi, 45, Woodcliff Lake, N.J.
Jeannine Marie Damiani-Jones, 28, New York, N.Y.
Patrick W. Danahy, 35, Yorktown Heights, N.Y.
Nana Kwuku Danso, 47, New York, N.Y.
Mary D'Antonio, 55, New York, N.Y.
Vincent G. Danz, 38, Farmingdale, N.Y.
Dwight Donald Darcy, 55, Bronxville, N.Y.
Elizabeth Ann Darling, 28, Newark, N.J.
Annette Andrea Dataram, 25, New York, N.Y.
Lt. Edward Alexander D'Atri, 38, New York, N.Y.
Michael D. D'Auria, 25, New York, N.Y.
Lawrence Davidson, 51, New York, N.Y.
Michael Allen Davidson, 27, Westfield, N.J.
Scott Matthew Davidson, 33, New York, N.Y.
Titus Davidson, 55, New York, N.Y.
Niurka Davila, 47, New York, N.Y.
Ada M. Davis, 57, Camp Springs, Md.
Clinton Davis, 38, New York, N.Y.
Wayne Terrial Davis, 29, Fort Meade, Md.
Calvin Dawson, 46, New York, N.Y.
Anthony Richard Dawson, 32, Southampton, Hampshire, England
Edward James Day, 45, New York, N.Y.
Emerita (Emy) De La Pena, 32, New York, N.Y.
Melanie Louise De Vere, 30, London, England
William T. Dean, 35, Floral Park, N.Y.
Robert J. DeAngelis, 48, West Hempstead, N.Y.
Thomas P. Deangelis, 51, Westbury, N.Y.
Dorothy Alma DeAraujo, 80, Long Beach, Calif.
Ana Gloria Pocasangre de Barrera, 49, San Salvador, El Salvador
Tara Debek, 35, Babylon, N.Y.
James Debeuneure, 58, Upper Marlboro, Md.
Anna Debin, 30, East Farmingdale, N.Y.
James V. DeBlase, 45, Manalapan, N.J.
Paul DeCola, 39, Ridgewood, N.Y.
Capt. Gerald Francis Deconto, 44, Sandwich, Mass.
Simon Dedvukaj, 26, Mohegan Lake, N.Y.
Jason Christopher DeFazio, 29, New York, N.Y.
David A. Defeo, 37, New York, N.Y.
Jennifer DeJesus, 23, New York, N.Y.
Monique E. DeJesus, 28, New York, N.Y.
Nereida DeJesus, 30, New York, N.Y.
Donald A. Delapenha, 37, Allendale, N.J.
Vito Joseph Deleo, 41, New York, N.Y.
Danielle Delie, 47, New York, N.Y.
Colleen Ann Deloughery, 41, Bayonne, N.J.
Joseph Deluca, 52, Ledgewood, N.J.
Francis (Frank) Albert DeMartini, 49, New York, N.Y.
Anthony Demas, 61, New York, N.Y.
Martin DeMeo, 47, Farmingville, N.Y.
Francis X. Deming, 47, Franklin Lakes, N.J.
Carol K. Demitz, 49, New York, N.Y.
Kevin Dennis, 43, Peapack, N.J.
Thomas F. Dennis, 43, Setauket, N.Y.
Jean C. DePalma, 42, Newfoundland, N.J.
Jose Nicolas Depena, 42, New York, N.Y.
Robert J. Deraney, 43, New York, N.Y.
Michael DeRienzo, 37, Hoboken, N.J.
David Paul Derubbio, 38, New York, N.Y.
Jemal Legesse DeSantis, 28, Jersey City, N.J.
Christian L. DeSimone, 23, Ringwood, N.J.
Edward DeSimone, 36, Atlantic Highlands, N.J.
Lt. Andrew Desperito, 44, Patchogue, N.Y.
Michael Jude D'Esposito, 32, Morganville, N.J.
Cindy Ann Deuel, 28, New York, N.Y.
Jerry DeVito, 66, New York, N.Y.
Robert P. Devitt, 36, Plainsboro, N.J.
Dennis Lawrence Devlin, 51, Washingtonville, N.Y.
Gerard Dewan, 35, New York, N.Y.
Simon Suleman Ali Kassamali Dhanani, 62, Hartsdale, N.Y.
Michael L. DiAgostino, 41, Garden City, N.Y.
Matthew Diaz, 33, New York, N.Y.
Nancy Diaz, 28, New York, N.Y.
Obdulio Ruiz Diaz, 44, New York, N.Y.
Lourdes Galletti Diaz, 32, New York, N.Y.
Michael Diaz-Piedra, 49
Judith Belguese Diaz-Sierra, 32, Bay Shore, N.Y.
Patricia F. DiChiaro, 63, New York, N.Y.
Rodney Dickens, 11, Washington, D.C.
Lt. Col. Jerry Don Dickerson, 41, Durant, Miss.
Joseph Dermot Dickey, 50, Manhasset, N.Y.
Lawrence Patrick Dickinson, 35, Morganville, N.J.
Michael David Diehl, 48, Brick, N.J.
John DiFato, 39, New York, N.Y.
Vincent F. DiFazio, 43, Hampton, N.J.
Carl DiFranco, 27, New York, N.Y.
Donald J. DiFranco, 43, New York, N.Y.
Eddie Dillard, Alexandria, Va.
Debra Ann DiMartino, 36, New York, N.Y.
David DiMeglio, 22, Wakefield, Mass.
Stephen P. Dimino, 48, Basking Ridge, N.J.
William J. Dimmling, 47, Garden City, N.Y.
Christopher Dincuff, 31, Jersey City, N.J.
Jeffrey M. Dingle, 32, New York, N.Y.
Anthony DiOnisio, 38, Glen Rock, N.J.
George DiPasquale, 33, New York, N.Y.
Joseph DiPilato, 57, New York, N.Y.
Douglas Frank DiStefano, 24, Hoboken, N.J.
Donald Americo DiTullio, 49, Peabody, Mass.
Ramzi A. Doany, 35, Bayonne, N.J., Jordanian
Johnnie Doctor, 32, Jacksonville, Fla.
John J. Doherty, 58, Hartsdale, N.Y.
Melissa C. Doi, 32, New York, N.Y.
Capt. Robert Edward Dolan, 43, Alexandria, Va.
Brendan Dolan, 37, Glen Rock, N.J.
Neil Dollard, 28, Hoboken, N.J.
James Joseph Domanico, 56, New York, N.Y.
Benilda Pascua Domingo, 37, New York, N.Y.
Albert Dominguez, 66, Sydney, Australia
Charles (Carlos) Dominguez, 34, East Meadow, N.Y.
Geronimo (Jerome) Mark Patrick Dominguez, 37, Holtsville, N.Y.
Lt. Kevin W. Donnelly, 43, New York, N.Y.
Cmdr. William Howard Donovan, 37, Nunda, N.Y.
Jacqueline Donovan, 34, New York, N.Y.
Stephen Dorf, 39, New Milford, N.J.
Thomas Dowd, 37, Monroe, N.Y.
Lt. Kevin Christopher Dowdell, 46, New York, N.Y.
Mary Yolanda Dowling, 46, New York, N.Y.
Raymond M. Downey, 63, Deer Park, N.Y.
Joseph M. Doyle, 25, New York, N.Y.
Frank Joseph Doyle, 39, Englewood, N.J.
Randy Drake, 37, Lee's Summit, Mo.
Patrick Joseph Driscoll, 70, Manalapan, N.J.
Stephen Patrick Driscoll, 38, Lake Carmel, N.Y.
Charles Droz, 52, Springfield, Va.
Mirna A. Duarte, 31, New York, N.Y.
Luke A. Dudek, 50, Livingston, N.J.
Christopher Michael Duffy, 23, New York, N.Y.
Gerard Duffy, 53, Manorville, N.Y.
Michael Joseph Duffy, 29, Northport, N.Y.
Thomas W. Duffy, 52, Pittsford, N.Y.
Antoinette Duger, 44, Belleville, N.J.
Jackie Sayegh Duggan, 34
Sareve Dukat, 53, New York, N.Y.
Cmdr. Patrick S. Dunn, 39, Springfield, Va.
Christopher Joseph Dunne, 28, Mineola, N.Y.
Richard A. Dunstan, 54, New Providence, N.J.
Patrick Thomas Dwyer, 37, Nissequogue, N.Y.
Joseph Anthony Eacobacci, 26, New York, N.Y.
John Bruce Eagleson, 53, Middlefield, Conn.
Edward Thomas Earhart, 26, Salt Lick, Ky.
Robert D. Eaton, 37, Manhasset, N.Y.
Dean P. Eberling, 44, Cranford, N.J.
Margaret Ruth Echtermann, 33, Hoboken, N.J.
Paul Robert Eckna, 28, West New York, N.J.
Constantine (Gus) Economos, 41, New York, N.Y.
Barbara G. Edwards, 58, Las Vegas, Nev.
Dennis Michael Edwards, 35, Huntington, N.Y.
Michael Hardy Edwards, 33, New York, N.Y.
Lisa Egan, 31, Cliffside Park, N.J.
Capt. Martin Egan, 36, New York, N.Y.
Michael Egan, 51, Middletown, N.J.
Christine Egan, 55, Winnipeg, Manitoba, Canada
Samantha Egan, 24, Jersey City, N.J.
Carole Eggert, 60, New York, N.Y.
Lisa Caren Weinstein Ehrlich, 36, New York, N.Y.
John Ernst (Jack) Eichler, 69, Cedar Grove, N.J.
Eric Adam Eisenberg, 32, Commack, N.Y.
Daphne F. Elder, 36, Newark, N.J.
Michael J. Elferis, 27, College Point, N.Y.
Mark J. Ellis, 26, South Huntington, N.Y.
Valerie Silver Ellis, 46, New York, N.Y.
Albert Alfy William Elmarry, 30, North Brunswick, N.J.
Lt. Cmdr. Robert Randolph Elseth, 37, Vestal, N.Y.
Edgar H. Emery, 45, Clifton, N.J.
Doris Suk-Yuen Eng, 30, New York, N.Y.
Christopher S. Epps, 29, New York, N.Y.
Ulf Ramm Ericson, 79, Greenwich, Conn.
Erwin L. Erker, 41, Farmingdale, N.Y.
William J. Erwin, 30, Verona, N.J.
Sarah (Ali) Escarcega, 35, New York, N.Y.
Jose Espinal, 31
Fanny M. Espinoza, 29, Teaneck, N.J.
Francis Esposito, 32, New York, N.Y.
Lt. Michael Esposito, 41, New York, N.Y.
William Esposito, 51, Bellmore, N.Y.
Brigette Ann Esposito, 34, New York, N.Y.
Ruben Esquilin, 35, New York, N.Y.
Sadie Ette, 36, New York, N.Y.
Barbara G. Etzold, 43, Jersey City, N.J.
Eric Brian Evans, 31, Weehawken, N.J.
Robert Edward Evans, 36, Franklin Square, N.Y.
Meredith Emily June Ewart, 29, Hoboken, N.J.
Catherine K. Fagan, 58, New York, N.Y.
Patricia M. Fagan, 55, Toms River, N.J.
Keith G. Fairben, 24, Floral Park, N.Y.
Charles S. Falkenberg, 45, University Park, Md.
Zoe Falkenberg, 8, University Park, Md.
Dana Falkenberg, 3, of University Park, Md.
Jamie Lynn Fallon, 23, Woodbridge, Va.
William Fallon, 38, Coram, N.Y.
William F. Fallon, 53, Rocky Hill, N.J.
Anthony J. Fallone, 39, New York, N.Y.
Dolores B. Fanelli, 38, Farmingville, N.Y.
Robert Fangman, 33, Claymont, Del.
John Joseph Fanning, 54, West Hempstead, N.Y.
Kathleen (Kit) Faragher, 33, Denver, Colo.
Capt. Thomas Farino, 37, Bohemia, N.Y.
Nancy Carole Farley, 45, Jersey City, N.J.
Paige Farley-Hackel, 46, Newton, Mass.
Elizabeth Ann (Betty) Farmer, 62, New York, N.Y.
Douglas Farnum, 33, New York, N.Y.
John W. Farrell, 41, Basking Ridge, N.J.
Terrence Patrick Farrell, 45, Huntington, N.Y.
John G. Farrell, 32, New York, N.Y.
Capt. Joseph Farrelly, 47, New York, N.Y.
Thomas P. Farrelly, 54, East Northport, N.Y.
Syed Abdul Fatha, 54, Newark, N.J.
Christopher Faughnan, 37, South Orange, N.J.
Wendy R. Faulkner, 47, Mason, Ohio
Shannon M. Fava, 30, New York, N.Y.
Bernard D. Favuzza, 52, Suffern, N.Y.
Robert Fazio, 41, Freeport, N.Y.
Ronald C. Fazio, 57, Closter, N.J.
William Feehan, 72, New York, N.Y.
Francis J. (Frank) Feely, 41, Middletown, N.Y.
Garth E. Feeney, 28, New York, N.Y.
Sean B. Fegan, 34, New York, N.Y.
Lee S. Fehling, 28, Wantagh, N.Y.
Peter Feidelberg, 34, Hoboken, N.J.
Alan D. Feinberg, 48, New York, N.Y.
Rosa Maria Feliciano, 30, New York, N.Y.
Edward P. Felt, 41, Matawan, N.J.
Edward T. Fergus, 40, Wilton, Conn.
James Joe Ferguson, 39, Washington, D.C.
George Ferguson, 54, Teaneck, N.J.
Henry Fernandez, 23, New York, N.Y.
Judy H. Fernandez, 27, Parlin, N.J.
Jose Manuel Contreras Fernandez, El Aguacate, Jalisco, Mexico
Elisa Giselle Ferraina, 27, London, England
Anne Marie Sallerin Ferreira, 29, Jersey City, N.J.
Robert John Ferris, 63, Garden City, N.Y.
David Francis Ferrugio, 46, Middletown, N.J.
Louis V. Fersini, 38, Basking Ridge, N.J.
Michael David Ferugio, 37, New York, N.Y.
Bradley James Fetchet, 24, New York, N.Y.
Jennifer Louise Fialko, 29, Teaneck, N.J.
Kristen Fiedel, 27, New York, N.Y.
Amelia V. Fields, 36, Dumfries, Va.
Samuel Fields, 36, New York, N.Y.
Alex Filipov, 70, Concord, Massachusetts
Michael Bradley Finnegan, 37, Basking Ridge, N.J.
Timothy J. Finnerty, 33, Glen Rock, N.J.
Michael Curtis Fiore, 46, New York, N.Y.
Stephen J. Fiorelli, 43, Aberdeen, N.J.
Paul M. Fiori, 31, Yorktown Heights, N.Y.
John Fiorito, 40, Stamford, Conn.
Lt. John R. Fischer, 46, New York, N.Y.
Gerald P. Fisher, 57, Potomac, Md.
Andrew Fisher, 42, New York, N.Y.
Thomas J. Fisher, 36, Union, N.J.
Bennett Lawson Fisher, 58, Stamford, Conn.
John Roger Fisher, 46, Bayonne, N.J.
Lucy Fishman, 37, New York, N.Y.
Ryan D. Fitzgerald, 26, New York, N.Y.
Thomas Fitzpatrick, 35, Tuckahoe, N.Y.
Richard P. Fitzsimons, 57, Lynbrook, N.Y.
Salvatore A. Fiumefreddo, 47, Manalapan, N.J.
Wilson "Bud" Flagg, 63, Millwood, Va.
Darlene Flagg, 63, Millwood, Va.
Christina Donovan Flannery, 26, New York, N.Y.
Eileen Flecha, 33, New York, N.Y.
Andre G. Fletcher, 37, North Babylon, N.Y.
Carl Flickinger, 38, Conyers, N.Y.
Matthew Michael Flocco, 21, Newark, Del.
John Joseph Florio, 33, Oceanside, N.Y.
Joseph W. Flounders, 46, East Stroudsburg, Pa.
Carol Flyzik, 40, Plaistow, N.H.
David Fodor, 38, Garrison, N.Y.
Lt. Michael N. Fodor, 53, Warwick, N.Y.
Steven Mark Fogel, 40, Westfield, N.Y.
Thomas Foley, 32, West Nyack, N.Y.
Jane C. Folger, 73, Bayonne, N.J.
David Fontana, 37, New York, N.Y.
Chih Min (Dennis) Foo, 40, Holmdel, N.J.
Del Rose Forbes-Cheatham, 48, New York, N.Y.
Godwin Forde, 39, New York, N.Y.
Donald A. Foreman, 53, New York, N.Y.
Christopher Hugh Forsythe, 44, Basking Ridge, N.J.
Sandra N. Foster, 41, Clinton, Md.
Claudia Alicia Martinez Foster, 26, New York, N.Y.
Noel J. Foster, 40, Bridgewater, N.J.
Ana Fosteris, 58, Coram, N.Y.
Robert J. Foti, 42, Albertson, N.Y.
Jeffrey L. Fox, 40, Cranbury, N.J.
Virginia Fox, 58, New York, N.Y.
Virgin (Lucy) Francis, 62, New York, N.Y.
Pauline Francis, 57, New York, N.Y.
Joan Francis
Gary J. Frank, 35, South Amboy, N.J.
Morton Frank, 31, New York, N.Y.
Peter Christopher Frank, 29, New York, N.Y.
Colleen Laura Fraser, 51, Elizabeth, N.J.
Richard K. Fraser, 32, New York, N.Y.
Kevin Joseph Frawley, 34, Bronxville, N.Y.
Clyde Frazier, 41, New York, N.Y.
Lillian I. Frederick, 46, Teaneck, N.J.
Andrew Fredericks, 40, Suffern, N.Y.
Tamitha Freemen, 35, New York, N.Y.
Brett O. Freiman, 29, Roslyn, N.Y.
Lt. Peter L. Freund, 45, Westtown, N.Y.
Arlene E. Fried, 49, Roslyn Heights, N.Y.
Alan Wayne Friedlander, 52, Yorktown Heights, N.Y.
Paul Friedman, 45, Belmont, Massachusetts
Andrew K. Friedman, 44, Woodbury, N.Y.
Gregg J. Froehner, 46, Chester, N.J.
Lisa Frost, 22, Rancho Santa Margarita, Calif.
Peter Christian Fry, 36, Wilton, Conn.
Clement Fumando, 59, New York, N.Y.
Steven Elliot Furman, 40, Wesley Hills, N.Y.
Paul James Furmato, 37, Colts Neck, N.J.
Karleton D.B. Fyfe, 31, Brookline, Massachusetts
Fredric Gabler, 30, New York, N.Y.
Richard Gabriel, 54, Great Falls, Va.
Richard S. Gabrielle, 50, West Haven, Conn.
James Andrew Gadiel, 23, New York, N.Y.
Pamela Gaff, 51, Robinsville, N.J.
Ervin Vincent Gailliard, 42, New York, N.Y.
Deanna L. Galante, 32, New York, N.Y.
Grace Galante, 29, New York, N.Y.
Anthony Edward Gallagher, 41, New York, N.Y.
Daniel James Gallagher, 23, Red Bank, N.J.
John Patrick Gallagher, 31, Yonkers, N.Y.
Cono E. Gallo, 30, New York, N.Y.
Vincenzo Gallucci, 36, Monroe Township, N.J.
Thomas Edward Galvin, 32, New York, N.Y.
Giovanna (Genni) Gambale, 27, New York, N.Y.
Thomas Gambino, 48, Babylon, N.Y.
Ronald Gamboa, 33, Los Angeles, Calif.
Giann F. Gamboa, 26, New York, N.Y.
Peter J. Ganci, 55, North Massapequa, N.Y.
Claude Michael Gann, 41, Roswell, Ga.
Lt. Charles William Garbarini, 44, Pleasantville, N.Y.
Andrew Garcia, 62, Portola Valley, Calif.
Cesar Garcia, 36, New York, N.Y.
David Garcia, 40, Freeport, N.Y.
Jorge Luis Morron Garcia, 38, New York, N.Y.
Juan Garcia, 50, New York, N.Y.
Marlyn C. Garcia, 21, New York, N.Y.
Christopher Gardner, 36, Darien, Conn.
Douglas B. Gardner, 39, New York, N.Y.
Harvey J. Gardner, 35, Lakewood, N.J.
Thomas A. Gardner, 39, Oceanside, N.Y.
Jeffrey B. Gardner, 36, Hoboken, N.J.
William Arthur Gardner, 45, Lynbrook, N.Y.
Francesco Garfi, 29, New York, N.Y.
Rocco Gargano, 28, Bayside, N.Y.
James M. Gartenberg, 36, New York, N.Y.
Matthew David Garvey, 37
Bruce Gary, 51, Bellmore, N.Y.
Palmina Delli Gatti, 33, New York, N.Y.
Boyd A. Gatton, 38, Jersey City, N.J.
Donald Richard Gavagan, 35, New York, N.Y.
Peter Gay, 54, Tewksbury, Massachusetts
Terence D. Gazzani, 24, New York, N.Y.
Gary Geidel, 44, New York, N.Y.
Paul Hamilton Geier, 36, Farmingdale, N.Y.
Julie M. Geis, 44, Lees Summit, Mo.
Peter Gelinas, 34, New York, N.Y.
Steven Paul Geller, 52, New York, N.Y.
Howard G. Gelling, 28, New York, N.Y.
Peter Victor Genco, 36, Rockville Centre, N.Y.
Steven Gregory Genovese, 37, Basking Ridge, N.J.
Alayne F. Gentul, 44, Mountain Lakes, N.J.
Linda George, 27, Westboro, Massachusetts
Edward F. Geraghty, 45, Rockville Centre, N.Y.
Suzanne Geraty, 30, New York, N.Y.
Ralph Gerhardt, 33, New York, N.Y.
Robert J. Gerlich, 56, Monroe, Conn.
Denis P. Germain, 33, Tuxedo Park, N.Y.
Marina R. Gertsberg, 25, New York, N.Y.
Susan M. Getzendanner, 57, New York, N.Y.
Capt. Lawrence Daniel Getzfred, 57, Elgin, Neb.
James Gerard Geyer, 41, Rockville Centre, N.Y.
Cortz Ghee, 54, Reisterstown, Md.
Joseph M. Giaccone, 43, Monroe, N.J.
Lt. Vincent Francis Giammona, 40, Valley Stream, N.Y.
Debra L. Gibbon, 43, Hackettstown, N.J.
James A. Giberson, 43, New York, N.Y.
Brenda C. Gibson, 59, Falls Church, Va.
Craig Neil Gibson, 37, New York, N.Y.
Ronnie Gies, 43, Merrick, N.Y.
Laura A. Giglio, 35, Oceanside, N.Y.
Andrew Clive Gilbert, 39, Califon, N.J.
Timothy Paul Gilbert, 35, Lebanon, N.J.
Paul Stuart Gilbey, 39, Chatham, N.J.
Paul John Gill, 34, New York, N.Y.
Mark Y. Gilles, 33, New York, N.Y.
Evan H. Gillette, 40, New York, N.Y.
Ronald Gilligan, 43, Norwalk, Conn.
Sgt. Rodney C. Gillis, 34, New York, N.Y.
Laura Gilly, 32, New York, N.Y.
Lt. John F. Ginley, 37, Warwick, N.Y.
Jeffrey Giordano, 46, New York, N.Y.
John Giordano, 46, Newburgh, N.Y.
Donna Marie Giordano, 44, Parlin, N.J.
Steven A. Giorgetti, 43, Manhasset, N.Y.
Martin Giovinazzo, 34, New York, N.Y.
Kum-Kum Girolamo, 41, New York, N.Y.
Salvatore Gitto, 44, Manalapan, N.J.
Cynthia Giugliano, 46, Nesconset, N.Y.
Mon Gjonbalaj, 65, New York, N.Y.
Dianne Gladstone, 55, New York, N.Y.
Keith Alexander Glascoe, 38, New York, N.Y.
Thomas I. Glasser, 40, Summit, N.J.
Edmund Glazer, 41, Los Angeles, California
Harry Glenn, 38, Piscataway, N.J.
Jeremy Glick, 31, Hewlett, N.J.
Barry H. Glick, 55, Wayne, N.J.
Steven Lawrence Glick, 42, Greenwich, Conn.
John T. Gnazzo, 32, New York, N.Y.
William (Bill) Robert Godshalk, 35, New York, N.Y.
Michael Gogliormella, 43, New Providence, N.J.
Brian Fredric Goldberg, 26, Union, N.J.
Jeffrey Grant Goldflam, 48, Melville, N.Y.
Michelle Herman Goldstein, 31, New York, N.Y.
Monica Goldstein, 25, New York, N.Y.
Steven Goldstein, 35, Princeton, N.J.
Ron Golinski, 60, Columbia, Md.
Andrew H. Golkin, 30, New York, N.Y.
Dennis James Gomes, 40, New York, N.Y.
Enrique Antonio Gomez, 42, New York, N.Y.
Jose Bienvenido Gomez, 45, New York, N.Y.
Manuel Gomez, 42, New York, N.Y.
Wilder Gomez, 38, New York, N.Y.
Jenine Gonzalez, 27, New York, N.Y.
Joel Guevara Gonzalez, 23, Aguascalientes, Aguascalientes, Mexico
Rosa J. Gonzalez, 32, Jersey City, N.J.
Mauricio Gonzalez, 27, New York, N.Y.
Lynn Catherine Goodchild, 25, Attleboro, Mass.
Calvin J. Gooding, 38, Riverside, N.Y.
Peter Morgan Goodrich, 33, Sudbury, Mass.
Harry Goody, 50, New York, N.Y.
Kiran Reddy Gopu, 24, Bridgeport, Conn.
Catherine Carmen Gorayeb, 41, New York, N.Y.
Lisa Fenn Gordenstein, 41, Needham, Massachusetts
Kerene Gordon, 43, New York, N.Y.
Sebastian Gorki, 27, New York, N.Y.
Thomas E. Gorman, 41, Middlesex, N.J.
Kieran Gorman, 35, Yonkers, N.Y.
Michael Edward Gould, 29, Hoboken, N.J.
Douglas A. Gowell, 52, Methuen, Mass.
Yugi Goya, 42, Rye, N.Y.
Jon Richard Grabowski, 33, New York, N.Y.
Christopher Michael Grady, 39, Cranford, N.J.
Edwin John Graf, 48, Rowayton, Conn.
David M. Graifman, 40, New York, N.Y.
Gilbert Granados, 51, Hicksville, N.Y.
Lauren Grandcolas, 38, San Rafael, Calif.
Elvira Granitto, 43, New York, N.Y.
Winston Arthur Grant, 59, West Hempstead, N.Y.
Ian J. Gray, 55, Columbia, Md.
Christopher Stewart Gray, 32, Weehawken, N.J.
James Michael Gray, 34, New York, N.Y.
Linda Mair Grayling, 44, New York, N.Y.
John Michael Grazioso, 41, Middletown, N.J.
Timothy Grazioso, 42, Gulf Stream, Fla.
Andrew Peter Charles Curry Green, 34, Santa Monica, Calif.
Wanda Anita Green, 49, Linden, N.J.
Derrick Arthur Green, 44, New York, N.Y.
Wade Brian Green, 42, Westbury, N.Y.
Elaine Myra Greenberg, 56, New York, N.Y.
Gayle R. Greene, 51, Montville, N.J.
Donald F. Greene, 52, Greenwich, Conn.
James Arthur Greenleaf, 32, New York, N.Y.
Eileen Marsha Greenstein, 52, Morris Plains, N.J.
Elizabeth (Lisa) Martin Gregg, 52, New York, N.Y.
Donald H. Gregory, 62, Ramsey, N.J.
Florence M. Gregory, 38, New York, N.Y.
Denise Gregory, 39, New York, N.Y.
Pedro (David) Grehan, 35, Hoboken, N.J.
John M. Griffin, 38, Waldwick, N.J.
Tawanna Griffin, 30, New York, N.Y.
Joan D. Griffith, 39, Willingboro, N.J.
Warren Grifka, 54, New York, N.Y.
Ramon Grijalvo, 58
Joseph F. Grillo, 46, New York, N.Y.
David Grimner, 51, Merrick, N.Y.
The Rev. Francis E. Grogan, 76, of Easton, Mass.
Linda Gronlund, 46, Warwick, N.Y.
Kenneth Grouzalis, 56, Lyndhurst, N.J.
Joseph Grzelak, 52, New York, N.Y.
Matthew J. Grzymalski, 34, New Hyde Park, N.Y.
Robert Joseph Gschaar, 55, Spring Valley, N.Y.
Liming (Michael) Gu, 34, Piscataway, N.J.
Richard Guadagno, 38, of Eureka, Calif.
Jose A. Guadalupe, 37, New York, N.Y.
Yan Zhu (Cindy) Guan, 25, New York, N.Y.
Geoffrey E. Guja, 47, Lindenhurst, N.Y.
Lt. Joseph Gullickson, 37, New York, N.Y.
Babita Guman, 33, New York, N.Y.
Douglas B. Gurian, 38, Tenafly, N.J.
Philip T. Guza, 54, Sea Bright, N.J.
Barbara Guzzardo, 49, Glendale, N.Y.
Peter Gyulavary, 44, Warwick, N.Y.
Gary Robert Haag, 36, Ossining, N.Y.
Andrea Lyn Haberman, 25, Chicago, Ill.
Barbara M. Habib, 49, New York, N.Y.
Philip Haentzler, 49, New York, N.Y.
Nizam A. Hafiz, 32, New York, N.Y.
Karen Hagerty, 34, New York, N.Y.
Steven Hagis, 31, New York, N.Y.
Mary Lou Hague, 26, New York, N.Y.
David Halderman, 40, New York, N.Y.
Maile Rachel Hale, 26, Cambridge, Mass.
Diane M. Hale-McKinzy, 38, Alexandria, Va.
Stanley Hall, 68, Rancho Palos Verdes, Calif.
Richard Hall, 49, Purchase, N.Y.
Vaswald George Hall, 50, New York, N.Y.
Robert John Halligan, 59, Basking Ridge, N.J.
Lt. Vincent Gerard Halloran, 43, North Salem, N.Y.
Carolyn B. Halmon, 49, Washington, D.C.
James D. Halvorson, 56, Greenwich, Conn.
Mohammad Salman Hamdani, 23, New York, N.Y.
Felicia Hamilton, 62, New York, N.Y.
Robert Hamilton, 43, Washingtonville, N.Y.
Carl Max Hammond, 37, Derry, N.H.
Frederic Kim Han, 45, Marlboro, N.J.
Christopher James Hanley, 34, New York, N.Y.
Sean Hanley, 35, New York, N.Y.
Valerie Joan Hanna, 57, Freeville, N.Y.
Thomas Hannafin, 36, New York, N.Y.
Kevin James Hannaford, 32, Basking Ridge, N.J.
Michael L. Hannan, 34, Lynbrook, N.Y.
Dana Hannon, 29, Suffern, N.Y.
Peter Hanson, 32, Groton, Mass.
Sue Kim Hanson, 35, Groton, Mass.
Christine Lee Hanson, 2, Groton, Mass.
Vassilios G. Haramis, 56, New York, N.Y.
James A. Haran, 41, Malverne, N.Y.
Gerald F. Hardacre, 61, Carlsbad, Calif.
Jeffrey P. Hardy, 46, New York, N.Y.
Timothy John Hargrave, 38, Readington, N.J.
Daniel Harlin, 41, Kent, N.Y.
Frances Haros, 76, New York, N.Y.
Lt. Harvey L. Harrell, 49, New York, N.Y.
Lt. Stephen Gary Harrell, 44, Warwick, N.Y.
Stewart D. Harris, 52, Marlboro, N.J.
Aisha Harris, 22, New York, N.Y.
John Patrick Hart, 38, Danville, Calif.
Eric Samadikan Hartono, 20, Boston, Mass.
John Clinton Hartz, 64, Basking Ridge, N.J.
Emeric J. Harvey, 56, Montclair, N.J.
Peter Hashem, 40, Tewksbury, Massachusetts
Capt. Thomas Theodore Haskell, 37, Massapequa, N.Y.
Timothy Haskell, 34, Seaford, N.Y.
Joseph John Hasson, 34, New York, N.Y.
Capt. Terence S. Hatton, 41, New York, N.Y.
Leonard William Hatton, 45, Ridgefield Park, N.J.
Michael Helmut Haub, 34, Roslyn Heights, N.Y.
Timothy Aaron Haviland, 41, Oceanside, N.Y.
Donald G. Havlish, 53, Yardley, Pa.
Anthony Hawkins, 30, New York, N.Y.
Nobuhiro Hayatsu, 36, Scarsdale, N.Y.
James E. Hayden, 47, Westford, Mass.
Robert Hayes, 37, from Amesbury, Massachusetts
Philip Hayes, 67, Northport, N.Y.
William Ward Haynes, 35, Rye, N.Y.
Scott Hazelcorn, 29, Hoboken, N.J.
Lt. Michael K. Healey, 42, East Patchogue, N.Y.
Roberta Bernstein Heber, 60, New York, N.Y.
Charles Francis Xavier Heeran, 23, Belle Harbor, N.Y.
John Heffernan, 37, New York, N.Y.
Michele Heidenberger, 57, Chevy Chase, Md.
Sheila Hein, 51, University Park, Md.
Howard Joseph Heller, 37, Ridgefield, Conn.
JoAnn L. Heltibridle, 46, Springfield, N.J.
Ronald John Hemenway, 37, Shawnee, Kan.
Mark F. Hemschoot, 45, Red Bank, N.J.
Ronnie Lee Henderson, 52, Newburgh, N.Y.
Janet Hendricks, 48, New York, N.Y.
Brian Hennessey, 35, Ringoes, N.J.
Edward (Ted) R. Hennessy, 35, Belmont, Mass.
Michelle Marie Henrique, 27, New York, N.Y.
Joseph P. Henry, 25, New York, N.Y.
William Henry, 49, New York, N.Y.
John Henwood, 35, New York, N.Y.
Robert Allan Hepburn, 39, Union, N.J.
Mary (Molly) Herencia, 47, New York, N.Y.
Lindsay Coates Herkness, 58, New York, N.Y.
Harvey Robert Hermer, 59, New York, N.Y.
Claribel Hernandez, 31, New York, N.Y.
Norberto Hernandez, 42, New York, N.Y.
Raul Hernandez, 51, New York, N.Y.
Gary Herold, 44, Farmingdale, N.Y.
Jeffrey A. Hersch, 53, New York, N.Y.
Thomas Hetzel, 33, Elmont, N.Y.
Capt. Brian Hickey, 47, New York, N.Y.
Ysidro Hidalgo-Tejada, 47, New York, N.Y., Dominican Republic
Lt. Timothy Higgins, 43, Farmingville, N.Y.
Robert D. Higley, 29, New Fairfield, Conn.
Todd Russell Hill, 34, Boston, Mass.
Clara Victorine Hinds, 52, New York, N.Y.
Neal Hinds, 28, New York, N.Y.
Mark D. Hindy, 28, New York, N.Y.
Richard Bruce Van Hine, 48, Greenwood Lake, N.Y.
Katsuyuki Hirai, 32, Hartsdale, N.Y.
Heather Malia Ho, 32, New York, N.Y.
Tara Yvette Hobbs, 31, New York, N.Y.
Thomas A. Hobbs, 41, Baldwin, N.Y.
James L. Hobin, 47, Marlborough, Conn.
Robert Wayne Hobson, 36, New Providence, N.J.
DaJuan Hodges, 29, New York, N.Y.
Ronald George Hoerner, 58, Massapequa Park, N.Y.
Patrick Aloysius Hoey, 53, Middletown, N.J.
John A. Hofer, 45, Los Angeles, Calif.
Stephen G. Hoffman, 36, Long Beach, N.Y.
Marcia Hoffman, 52, New York, N.Y.
Frederick J. Hoffmann, 53, Freehold, N.J.
Michele L. Hoffmann, 27, Freehold, N.J.
Judith Florence Hofmiller, 53, Brookfield, Conn.
Maj. Wallace Cole Hogan, 40, Fla.
Thomas Warren Hohlweck, 57, Harrison, N.Y.
Jonathan R. Hohmann, 48, New York, N.Y.
Cora Hidalgo Holland, 52, of Sudbury, Massachusetts
John Holland, 30
Joseph Francis Holland, 32, Glen Rock, N.J.
Jimmie Ira Holley, 54, Lanham, Md.
Elizabeth Holmes, 42, New York, N.Y.
Thomas P. Holohan, 36, Chester, N.Y.
Herbert W. Homer, 48, Milford, Mass.
Leroy Homer, 36, Marlton, N.J.
Bradley Hoorn, 22, New York, N.Y.
James P. Hopper, 51, Farmingdale, N.Y.
Montgomery McCullough Hord, 46, Pelham, N.Y.
Michael Horn, 27, Lynbrook, N.Y.
Matthew D. Horning, 26, Hoboken, N.J.
Robert L. Horohoe, 31, New York, N.Y.
Michael R. Horrocks, 38, Glen Mills, Pa.
Aaron Horwitz, 24, New York, N.Y.
Charles J. Houston, 42, New York, N.Y.
Uhuru G. Houston, 32, Englewood, N.J.
Angela Houtz, 27, La Plata, Md.
George Howard, 45, Hicksville, N.Y.
Brady K. Howell, 26, Arlington, Va.
Steven L. Howell, 36, New York, N.Y.
Michael C. Howell, 60, New York, N.Y.
Jennifer L. Howley, 34, New Hyde Park, N.Y.
Milagros "Millie" Hromada, 35, New York, N.Y.
Marian Hrycak, 56, New York, N.Y.
Stephen Huczko, 44, Bethlehem, N.J.
Kris R. Hughes, 30, Nesconset, N.Y.
Melissa Harrington Hughes, 31, San Francisco, Calif.
Thomas F. Hughes, 46, Spring Lake Heights, N.J.
Timothy Robert Hughes, 43, Madison, N.J.
Paul R. Hughes, 38, Stamford, Conn.
Robert T. "Bobby" Hughes, 23, Sayreville, N.J.
Susan Huie, 43, Fair Lawn, N.J.
Mychal Lamar Hulse, 30, New York, N.Y.
Nicholas Humber, 60, of Newton, Massachusetts,
William C. Hunt, 32, Norwalk, Conn.
Joseph G. Hunter, 31, South Hempstead, N.Y.
Peggie Hurt, 36, Crewe, Va.
Robert Hussa, 51, Roslyn, N.Y.
Lt. Col. Stephen Neil Hyland, 45, Burke, Va.
Robert J. Hymel, 55, Woodbridge, Va.
Capt. Walter Hynes, 46, Belle Harbor, N.Y.
Thomas E. Hynes, 28, Norwalk, Conn.
Joseph Anthony Ianelli, 28, Hoboken, N.J.
Zuhtu Ibis, 25, Clifton, N.J.
Jonathan Lee Ielpi, 29, Great Neck, N.Y.
Michael Patrick Iken, 37, New York, N.Y.
Daniel Ilkanayev, 36, New York, N.Y.
Capt. Frederick Ill, 49, Pearl River, N.Y.
Abraham Nethanel Ilowitz, 51, New York, N.Y.
Anthony P. Infante, 47, Chatham, N.J.
Louis S. Inghilterra, 45, New Castle, N.Y.
Christopher N. Ingrassia, 28, Watchung, N.J.
Paul Innella, 33, East Brunswick, N.J.
Stephanie V. Irby, 38, New York, N.Y.
Douglas Irgang, 32, New York, N.Y.
Todd A. Isaac, 29, New York, N.Y.
Erik Hans Isbrandtsen, 30, New York, N.Y.
Taizo Ishikawa, 50
Waleed Iskandar, 34, London, England
Aram Iskenderian, 41, Merrick, N.Y.
John Iskyan, 41, Wilton, Conn.
Kazushige Ito, 35, New York, N.Y.
Aleksandr Valeryerich Ivantsov, 23, New York, N.Y.
Sgt. Maj. Lacey B. Ivory, 43, Woodbridge, Va.
Virginia Jablonski, 49, Matawan, N.J.
Bryan Jack, 48, Alexandria, Va.
Brooke Alexandra Jackman, 23, New York, N.Y.
Aaron Jacobs, 27, New York, N.Y.
Jason Kyle Jacobs, 32, Mendham, N.J.
Michael Grady Jacobs, 54, Danbury, Conn.
Ariel Louis Jacobs, 29, Briarcliff Manor, N.Y.
Steven A. Jacobson, 53, New York, N.Y.
Steven D. Jacoby, 43, Alexandria, Va.
Ricknauth Jaggernauth, 58, New York, N.Y.
Jake Denis Jagoda, 24, Huntington, N.Y.
Yudh V.S. Jain, 54, New City, N.Y.
Maria Jakubiak, 41, Ridgewood, N.Y.
Robert Adrien Jalbert, 61, Swampscott, Mass.
Gricelda E. James, 44, Willingboro, N.J.
Ernest James, 40, New York, N.Y.
Mark Jardim, 39, New York, N.Y.
Amy N. Jarret, 28, North Smithfield, R.I.
Mohammed Jawara, 30, New York, N.Y.
Francois Jean-Pierre, 58, New York, N.Y.
Maxima Jean-Pierre, 40, Bellport, N.Y.
Paul E. Jeffers, 39, New York, N.Y.
John Charles Jenkins, 45, Cambridge, Mass.
Joseph Jenkins, 47, New York, N.Y.
Alan K. Jensen, 49, Wyckoff, N.J.
Prem N. Jerath, 57, Edison, N.J.
Farah Jeudy, 32, Spring Valley, N.Y.
Hweidar Jian, 42, East Brunswick, N.J.
Eliezer Jimenez, 38, New York, N.Y.
Luis Jimenez, 25, New York, N.Y.
Charles Gregory John, 44, New York, N.Y.
Nicholas John, 42, New York, N.Y.
Lt. Col. Dennis M. Johnson, 48, Port Edwards, Wis.
Scott M. Johnson, 26, New York, N.Y.
LaShawana Johnson, 27, New York, N.Y.
William Johnston, 31, North Babylon, N.Y.
Charles Edward Jones, 48, Bedford, Mass.
Judith Jones, 53, Woodbridge, Va.
Allison Horstmann Jones, 31, New York, N.Y.
Arthur Joseph Jones, 37, Ossining, N.Y.
Brian L. Jones, 44, New York, N.Y.
Christopher D. Jones, 53, Huntington, N.Y.
Donald T. Jones, 39, Livingston, N.J.
Donald W. Jones, 43, Fairless Hills, Pa.
Linda Jones, 50, New York, N.Y.
Mary S. Jones, 72, New York, N.Y.
Andrew Jordan, 35, Remsenburg, N.Y.
Robert Thomas Jordan, 34, Williston, N.Y.
Ingeborg Joseph, 60, Germany
Karl Henri Joseph, 25, New York, N.Y.
Stephen Joseph, 39, Franklin Park, N.J.
Albert Joseph, 79
Jane Eileen Josiah, 47, Bellmore, N.Y.
Lt. Anthony Jovic, 39, Massapequa, N.Y.
Angel Luis Juarbe, 35, New York, N.Y.
Karen Susan Juday, 52, New York, N.Y.
Ann Judge, 49, Great Falls, Va.
The Rev. Mychal Judge, 68, New York, N.Y.
Paul W. Jurgens, 47, Levittown, N.Y.
Thomas Edward Jurgens, 26, Lawrence, N.Y.
Kacinga Kabeya, 63, McKinney, Texas
Shashi Kiran Lakshmikantha Kadaba, 25, Hackensack, N.J.

Still Trudging Onward

Hello Everyone.

Wow, I haven't posted since February!  Really?  It CAN'T have been that long!!!  I am sorry.

I have to say, some of you have been so kind lately as to send me gentle nudges about updating.   Thanks for that.  The texts, the phone calls, the e-mails and letters all do encourage me so much and I cannot tell you how much I appreciate that you all have not given up on me.  I haven't either.

So what's new?

First, I am still fighting depression.  Sometimes I think I am winning and other times I want to crawl into bed and never come out.  But I keep plugging at it.  It cannot last forever.   Quite honestly one of my big struggles is my marriage.  I have been married nearly 21 years and I have been very unhappy within that for at least 12 of them.  I won't go into details because I don't think it is appropriate to do so, but it is a huge contributor to the depression.

Next:  I finally got the phone call I had been waiting for for over a year.   While having lunch with a very close friend my cell phone rang and it was a number I did not recognize.  I answered and the call went something like this:

Hello?

Hello, is this "Hot Flash"? 

Yes.

Hi, this is (fill in the blank) from Rural Metro Ambulance.  I am calling because some time ago you applied for an EMT-Basic position.  Are you still interested?

(I could hardly contain my enthusiasm at this point!)

Not just yes but HECK yes!! 

From there arrangements were made for me to come in for an interview.  This would consist of a written exam, a practical exam and a panel interview with three evaluators.  I had two weeks to prepare.  My close friend was as ecstatic as I was.   He is a retired firefighter paramedic and has talked with me at length about my goals and dreams.  We hugged and laughed and he gave me some encouragement and advice before we parted and I went back to work for the afternoon.

I could not stop thinking about how long I had waited for this opportunity and how badly I wanted the job.  But at the same time, I had never interviewed for an EMS position before.  I did not really know what to expect or how best to prepare myself.  In addition, this all happened at the BUSIEST time of year for me at work.  I did not know how I was going to pull this off but I told myself... "You have to just do it. It's not like someone is going to call 911 and you will be able to say, 'call back later, I'm busy'!"

Over the next two weeks I did not get much time to study or prepare and I was feeling very rusty.  I have been out of school for over a year and the only practice I have had has been at OTEP classes (Ongoing training that occurs monthly).  Finally the day of the interview arrived.

I walked in to the office about ten minutes early and was told to take a seat.  I waited patiently as assorted EMT's and Paramedics passed through the small office on their way into work.    Being shy was going to get me no where and I knew it so I made a point of saying hello or good morning to each one.  Most said hello or good morning back but a couple actually took the time to have a small conversation with me and wished me luck.  That was a nice start.

Finally it was my turn to go back and start this process.  I was taken to a large table in a meeting room where there were three other candidates all working on their written exams.  One was placed in front of me and I was directed to start whenever I was ready.   The exam was challenging.  I know that I know what I am supposed to, yet it seemed daunting.   I have no idea how I did on that exam but the last question was the worst.  It was something along the lines of, "Do you feel this exam was an accurate assessment of your skills and knowledge?"   How the heck should I answer THAT?   If I say yes and I did terribly then I am saying I suck.   If I say no I am being critical of their selection process.   Finally I decided to say yes.  It asked good questions, none were surprises.  How could I answer any other way?

I was supposed to go from the written exam to the oral board.  I was wishing I could do the practical exam first.  That is what is most threatening to me.  When I have been on a run, I just responded.  I don't think about it.. I react and do what I am trained to do.   When it is an evaluation... I get stuck in my head.  I worry about if I am doing it right.   If I could just get this out of the way I could relax for the oral boards.   But that is not how it was set up.   As I waited I tried to convince myself that it would be a piece of cake.  I knew my stuff and all I had to do was make it real in my head.  Finally someone came into the room and called a name.  It was the name of the person who had last headed out of the room for the oral boards (a fellow EMT from my class).   I told the RM employee that the other person was in the oral board interview.  He looked at me and said, "Well then, you must be "HotFlash".  I was the only female applicant there so it was a no brainer.  I nodded affirmatively and he said,  "Then you are the next lucky contestant."

I followed him to another room.  He was rather laid back in his demeanor and made me feel fairly comfortable right away.  He told me to look over what equipment was set out for the scenario and told me that everything I would need should be there already.  When I had glanced over what was where, he asked if I was ready to begin.   I noticed upon glancing through things that there were only extra large gloves.  I wear smalls.  Extra large gloves would leave a full inch of empty finger above the tips of mine.  That makes it difficult to work.   I asked if they had any smaller gloves.  He said there should be but then was unable to produce them.  He searched for quite a while and I said a few minutes into it not to worry, I would make do.  He kept trying and I felt uncomfortable that I was making things difficult.  Finally he decided to let me make do with the extra larges.

He told me what the scenario was.   A call had come in for a fiftyfour y/o male who had collapsed while watching television.  No other information.

I arrived on scene, made sure the scene was safe and put my gloves on as I verbalized it to be so and BSI (body substance isolation measures).  Upon entering the room a care giver was performing cpr on the patient who was apparently in full cardiac arrest.  I observed the cpr being given as adequate as I obtained a brief history from the caregiver and I directed my ghost engine crew to take over cpr and initiate oxygen therapy with a bvm (bag valve mask).  I requested ALS (Advanced Life Support) backup and then I discovered there was no remarkable history, the patient was on blood pressure medications and cpr had been underway for approximately five minutes since the patient collapsed with out warning.  I prepared the AED (automated external defibrillator) as I was listening and questioning the caregiver.    Frustratingly the AED model available to me was not one I was familiar with and it felt like I was taking forever to figure out how to set it up properly.  I could not seem to figure out where to plug the wires in.  It probably only took me a few seconds but I still felt awkward and I commented that I was not familiar with that model.  Finally I figured it out, the patient was analyzed, shock was advised and I delivered it.   The patient still had no pulse and CPR was continued for another two minutes.  I reanalyzed, reshocked and continued cpr again and one more time after that.  At some point during the scenario I was told that the patient was not getting adequate ventilation and I then placed an oral airway adjunct and continued treating my patient.   Before long, the evaluator thanked me and told me that despite my best efforts the patient didn't make it.  He asked me if I had any questions.  I asked about the on the job training that I was told would happen if I was hired.  He told me what it consisted of and expressed his own disappointment that it was not more extensive.  I did not know what to say to that.  Finally I asked, "how did I do?"   It was a long shot but I thought I would try anyway lol.  He just smiled and said, "Well, you made it through."  He had no intentions of telling me one way or the other.  Oh well.  I tried. :)  I thanked him and he walked me back to wait for the oral boards.

My turn came soon enough.  I entered feeling much more calm than I would have had the order been reversed.  The worst of it was out of the way as far as I was concerned.  I entered the room and there was a long table with three men sitting on one side and a seat for me on the other.  I said hello and introduced myself, shaking hands with each and was directed to sit.  I did.  The proceeded to ask me questions.  Standards like, "tell us about yourself," and "why do you want to work for Rural Metro Ambulance?" and scenario based questions such as, "You and your partner are transporting a non-critical patient and your partner is driving hard and fast, what do you do?"   Another question was,  "you are dispatched to the scene of a MVA (motor vehicle accident) and arrive to find a compact car with moderate front end damage and a 69 year old woman trapped in the driver's seat.  As you approach the fire chief tells you what has happened and that you will not need your back board so you can just put it back.  What do you do?"

I don't know if I answered all the questions the way they had been looking for me to but I did the best I could and I left feeling pretty good about the interview as well.   The entire time I was there was about two hours and in that time I never saw another female applicant.  I know one of my friends and fellow EMT classmates had an interview later that afternoon so there were at least two of us.   I later found out she never saw another female applicant either.

Now came the hardest part of all.  Hurry up and wait.  My interview was on a Tuesday and I did not hear back until nine days later.  It came in the form of a letter.  I knew before I opened it that it could not be good news.  I did not get hired and neither did either of my two fellow EMT classmates.  I was disappointed but not upset.  I am not giving up.

I still maintain that God did not clear the obstacles he did for me to be trained for me to do nothing with it.  Some day, some where I will get my chance to shine.  I was born to do this and I have no doubts about that.  Grant me patience Lord, but please hurry.

Stay safe my friends.

Hotflash out.

Tearing Down the Mountain

Hello Everyone.

I know it has been a long time again since I posted but I also know I have a few faithful followers who check in here to see how I am doing.  It is comforting to know that people care and want to see me get past this horrible mountain that stands between me and success lately.

Depression is a horrible thing.  It doesn't just make one sad, lonely or doubtful.  It takes away the desire to fix it. It blocks the creativity to find solutions.  It zaps one's energy and self esteem.   I am not telling you all this to whine.  I know that with continued prayers and my medication this WILL eventually pass.  I am telling you so you have some idea of where I am coming from, why I don't keep in touch.  Everything I enjoy when I am not depressed, no longer brings a  feeling of pleasure or satisfaction when I am.  I even dread fire calls.  I have always loved to serve my fire dept., and to be able to help others on scene.  I enjoy the thrill of flashing lights, shiny fire trucks and firefighters running around in their organized chaos as they do their jobs.   And I have always enjoyed the camaraderie between fellow Fire Buff Battalion members and the firefighters.  But I feel NOTHING when I go now.  But still, I DO go.  It is one of the few things that I still force myself to do even though the depression weighs me down.  And the reason I do still go is because I find a tremendous amount of support in my Fire Buff family.   They have been there for me no matter what, sometimes running themselves ragged to take care of fellow member's needs.   And the firefighters are SO appreciative of what we do.  It is still rewarding to know that we do make a difference...that comes through even through the depression and for that I am truly thankful.

I will try.. as I have promised before... to post more often.  I am afraid that posting my progress through this depression may be a downer to you who read it.  But I am hoping that if it is you will just skip it.  If it does not bring you down then read it if you like,  and I appreciate the encouragement from you.  And I believe that if I write it down.. maybe it can help to get it out and make this mountain of depression disintegrate into dust so I can have my life back.

I love you all and appreciate your patience, friendship and words of encouragement more than you could ever know.

HUGS!

-Hotflash